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Well, I promised an update on "feelings". I am having some good days and some miserable ones. Have begun counting down the days to surgery. It is kinda sick and twisted. I can only compare it to someone having an amputation. I know I will have the reconstruction but it won't be the same. I am feeling a little bit insane and a little neglected frankly. I do think that people have no idea what to say. I say, actions speak louder than words. But I don't know what those actions should be. I would really like it if my friends would come visit me. I don't feel like working. Good thing I don't have to much. Then I will be off from April 13 - May 1 so no biggie there. I really wish I could go somewhere where topless is the norm before surgery, you know?And then there's planning for radiation - every day! Elisabeth is coming for a couple of days this week.

I need to start planning for this summer - I need to talk to Uncle Tom and Aunt Ellen about quahog fest 2006! I still can't believe that my 40th birthday will be pre-, during, or recovering from reconstruction. I still want to go somewhere wonderful with as many people as possible.

Just rambling now.