After Taxol

Well, I didn't have an allergic reaction to the Taxol which was good. But I did end up with the aches and pains that come about 2 days after the treatment. Some felt like flu and others felt like being hit with a hammer in certain places at random times. It sucks! But, I will live through it. I go for my special blood test for my genetic testing tomorrow. I really am anxious to know the results so that I can try to prepare myself for what the surgery is going to be.

I have been thinking about when I can breathe between the chemo and the surgery or whether I should wait until after the surgery. I kinda would like some time with both breasts to be able to chill out at the timeshare in the DR. But then I think I should wait and see when I am officially cancer free. But what if that doesn't happen? And how long will it be until the re-construction? I really am still having a hard time not being in control of my life. But then I take a deep breath and remind myself that something else has me in control but it won't be forever.