Updates

I had a wonderful time in NYC. Not only was my sister's baby shower a great success, the dog show exactly what I needed to relax, but my sister had a Yoga marriage to be legal before the baby is born - a wedding will follow.

I have been skiing up in Waterville Valley for the beginning of this vacation. Staying at my brother in law's cabin with everyone from my husband's side except his mom. The conditions are not perfect but watching my girls get so great and enjoying myself on the slopes was fun.

I can home yesterday because I was supposed to have my second to last treatment today. Unfortunately, my white blood cell count was down to 900 so I couldn't get it. I now have to go back next Thursday and everything is off by a week. Oh well. I week, I think I can handle. Oh and my genetic tests were recently sent to Dr. Karp. They have not received them yet but I should get a call next week to talk about them.

If I can get my work done by the morning, I will go back up to Waterville early. No matter what, I am going to ski with the family on Saturday. We do have to be back on Sunday. Doug is traveling very much in March so things are going to be crazy! Again, just have to hang in there.

Kimberly

This is of my bald head taken today. It really is the perfect shaped bald head, if I do say so myself. I did have a dream that my hair grew back so much that I didn't have to wear a cap to keep warm! But truthfully, I should lose the little growth I have and most of the other hair that is left on my body over the weekend because of the cumlative effects of the Taxol. Oh, well.  

Well, I had my second Taxol yesterday so I am halfway through. So far, I am feeling just fine. I have taken some Advil just to be on the safe side and will continue to do so through Monday. I am so excited for this little vacation of mine! Baby shower, dog show, everything. I am really allowing the little things to get me up. I am even going to a jewelry party tonight and am really looking forward to spending the time with friends.

My email address will be changing probably next Friday so I will update everyone on that. Have to pack and wrap soon.

A bit of a rant. But before I say so, I have received emails recently from Karin and Clare and a post by Chrissy and I love them! Please keep them coming even if I don't respond right away!

I hate having no control of my life! I cannot plan things, I cannot even know for sure if I have a future! My hands are a dry peeling, cracking mess and my face is not worth getting the mirror out for! Now I have to wait for the genetic tests to come back before I can even discuss surgery options. If everything goes well, I will have those test results before my last chemo. But it is difficult because of all the freakin privacy laws and they have to make an appointment with the risk counselor to give them to you and counsel you on them! I don't want counseling, I want my answer. Negative - great! Only really have to look at the difference between a lumpectomy and a mastectomy. Positive - I am looking at double mastectomy and removal of my ovaries. Not that I want them anymore but it becomes a much more major surgery (s) with longer recovery time, etc, etc. I am not taking the best care of myself and money is so scarce because we are carrying two mortgages and two equity loans. Until the house sells, I can't even think about doing anything for myself! At least I am going to NYC next weekend for my sister's baby shower and the Westminster Dog show. That will be fun and a bit of a break from my life.

Blah!